It’s only when you look behind to what you’ve left that you realize how far you’ve...

Sat, 18 May 2013 19:06:35 -0400

It’s only when you look behind to what you’ve left that you realize how far you’ve actually come. And you realize you’re thankful for the journey.

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Sat, 18 May 2013 02:11:41 -0400

gaksdesigns: Artwork by Robert Carter

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:26:31 -0400

gaksdesigns:

Artwork by Robert Carter

"All the poets that you love listening to love lying to you. I’m not that egocentric to make you..."

Fri, 17 May 2013 10:08:41 -0400

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All the poets that you love listening to
love lying to you.
I’m not that egocentric to make you believe that I’m not one of them.
I lie all the time,
mostly up here.

See, I’ve been doing this for a little while
and I’m starting to understand things:
poetry is not about telling you the truth.
It’s about telling you the version of a story
that gets the most reaction,
the one that flows the best on the mic,
the one that has all the lines
that the audience is going to like.

See, maybe the truth
isn’t supposed to rhyme so well.
Maybe it doesn’t have to rise to a crescendo.
The truth
never sounded like sound bites
and name dropping.

I promised myself I wouldn’t write poems about poetry,
but I woke up at 3 AM the other morning
and started spitting out all these lies that I couldn’t roll off my tongue
and thought that maybe at this hour
I could write a poem about honesty
without having to choreograph the hook at the end.

I woke up at 3 AM
and I’m having trouble remembering how to spell the word “wouldn’t”.

Four years ago, I featured at a youth slam in Jersey City,
and tried to show some children how poetry is supposed to sound cool.

Jessica sat in the front row
thinking I could teach her about spoken word.
I lied to her, in metaphor, for a half hour
only to hear the silence of a fifth grade explosion;
Jessica explained it to her thirteen year old peers
how rough her father’s beard stubble felt when her was drinking
and how a foster family is just a fresh coat of paint over stucco
when you’ve been running against the wall.

She didn’t actually say all this.
Not like I can.
But I could hear the inhalation of truth
in between breaths of her poetry.
Her name is not really Jessica.
I don’t remember what it is.
But for a moment, I can make you care about her,
even if she’s not real.

Don’t ask me.
You wouldn’t know the difference anyway.

I don’t write poems about honesty.
I’ve written three poems this year to make me sound cute to girls,
but not one about the medication that I’m taking
because there are some things
that I don’t fucking talk about.
Why am I 33 years old and still trying to sound cute to girls?

A couple weeks ago,
two friends asked me how my roommate is doing.

I use the word “roommate”
instead of referring to her as the girl I’m afraid of falling in love with
because she is the most beautiful overturned school bus that I have ever seen
and I slow down sometimes to watch the trauma.

And because she knows me.
Like how she knows that I look in the mirror too much,
and I always eat the last peanut butter cup,
and I fuck girls with my poems,
and use the word “roommate” too loosely.

And the poet in me
should’ve told them she’s doing just fine,
but I hadn’t memorized all the lines yet.
My best friend is not doing fine,
and I can’t fix it.

The students in my class
like me because I say the word “bullshit” during my lectures
and let them out early.

They don’t see that fear has me losing focus on the bullet points
when I’m thinking about how many slit wrists I’ll return home to tonight.
My roommate’s not suicidal
But it sounds sexier than saying
that she closes her eyes sometimes
when she’s changing lanes.

I lie.
Because it keeps me driving to work
instead of holding her all night and crying.

I need somebody to talk to
but poetry helps you meet people who want to fuck poets.
Who do you talk to when your best friend is biting off her cuticles,
while other girls are sharpening their nails?

I need to go to bed now.
I’m sorry I lied.
I’ll write the rest of this poem tomorrow,
when I can differentiate what’s none of your fucking business
and write poems with hooks that rhyme.
It doesn’t matter what you believe.
I’m tired of being the strong one all the time.

”

- Chad Anderson, “Liars, All of Us” (via pigmenting)

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Fri, 17 May 2013 09:52:55 -0400

“We all have excuses why living in fear something in us...

Thu, 16 May 2013 14:28:26 -0400

“We all have excuses why living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings, its not how high he flies but the song he sings”

Courage Is - The Strange Familiar

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE

Thu, 16 May 2013 02:46:05 -0400

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

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Wed, 15 May 2013 23:15:17 -0400

yama-bato: by Minoru Nomata via

Tue, 14 May 2013 03:51:42 -0400

yama-bato:

by Minoru Nomata

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lohrien: Paintings by Amberlee Rosolowich

Tue, 14 May 2013 03:47:54 -0400

lohrien:

Paintings by Amberlee Rosolowich

mythologyofblue: Day Job of Poets. (via poetrysociety)

Mon, 13 May 2013 11:34:30 -0400

mythologyofblue:

Day Job of Poets. (via poetrysociety)

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Sun, 12 May 2013 16:47:51 -0400

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wrong-all-along: Florence + The Machine : Falling

Sun, 12 May 2013 03:23:19 -0400

wrong-all-along:

Florence + The Machine : Falling

everthinggravy: Helios For Years and Years

Sat, 11 May 2013 14:10:00 -0400

everthinggravy:

Helios For Years and Years

aphelia: percurso para a Branda de Crastibô by Alice Bernardo...

Fri, 10 May 2013 19:31:39 -0400

aphelia:

percurso para a Branda de Crastibô by Alice Bernardo on Flickr.

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Fri, 10 May 2013 19:31:31 -0400

all you need is less

It’s only when you look behind to what you’ve left that you realize how far you’ve...

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gaksdesigns: Artwork by Robert Carter

"All the poets that you love listening to love lying to you. I’m not that egocentric to make you..."

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“We all have excuses why living in fear something in us...

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE

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yama-bato: by Minoru Nomata via

lohrien: Paintings by Amberlee Rosolowich

mythologyofblue: Day Job of Poets. (via poetrysociety)

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wrong-all-along: Florence + The Machine : Falling

everthinggravy: Helios For Years and Years

aphelia: percurso para a Branda de Crastibô by Alice Bernardo...

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